Loving Emma Grace

Wow, I'm really slacking or either really, really busy one? Its been a while since I last blogged, see I started this blog in memory of our daughter to help get through the grief.  Let's see where are we, first off we recently celebrated our twins fourth birthday on February 4th, Emma's third year in heaven on her birthday, I'm sure she had the grandest celebration of all.  I do wish we could celebrate with her together but I know that one day we will, it's still not easy but at least we have the assurance of seeing her again, some days that is  all that gets me through.  It was a blessing watching little man Easton celebrate, he amazes me more and more everyday!  Kailey is keeping us busy still with cheer and loving every minute of it, she's such a diva !   This brings me to my next point, see this blog was started for our precious Emma Grace and our journey which still continues everyday, here's where we are at today; Kailey still cries at t...

EMMA GRACE:     She got the name Grace Because she lived in the womb when they said she may not, she survived birth even when they said there may not be a chance, they said abort to save her twin and we said NO! Then she came home all by God's grace.  Sometimes you have to put it in God's hands the Dr's can guess but God knows! Little did we know that her grace from God was only beginning.  God had some very important work for Emma to do.  She taught her family a love like no other and was tough and fought through and endured so many struggles in this world.  See Emma was born with a very rare genetic disorder that had never been seen before, she had a congenital heart defect requiring open heart surgery and she could not  hear or barely see without the help of her glasses.  We knew about her heart before she was born but had no idea until after birth of all the other struggles she would have to endure when she entered this worl...

As we approach the holidays again this is a difficult time for myself and my family.  This will be our second Thanksgiving and Christmas without our  pecious Emma Grace you would think that it may get easier over the years but the truth is I still miss her the same today as I have everyday since she left us to be at home with our Lord.  I know she no longer suffers and is having the time of her life and it's just a TEMORARY separation for a little while until we get to be at home with her.  I post this in her memory and as a reminder to not be forgotten.  If this is the only way I can see her precious face it will have to do.  It's like a little piece of Heaven for me.  May God bless all the other heart moms who have lost and all others throughout this time of year.  We will still always celebrate her everyday and throughout the Holidays.  We have a special Christmas tree just for our Gracie.  I know I've shared this video before bu...

I feel the need to address certain issues in life that are not acceptable and try to do the right thing and remain Godly in an UnGodly world.  I will start by using my favorite Elvis quote, "When things go wrong, don't go with them."  This being said the meaning I am using in this is when you feel people have wronged you and direspected you don't go there with them, do not go down to their level.  It's one thing to try to understand the differences in one's beliefs but it takes it to a whole other level when one goes a step farther and actually makes fun of one's beliefs.  Oviously everyone thinks their choice is the best reguarding anything and that is fine, if you are comfortable with where you are in life then that is where you should be.  If I disagree with you, I understand that not everyone thinks the same way but as adults it is shameful to be childish and make fun of someone's beliefs.  That speaks volumes about the individual, as they say acti...

Today I am sickened and struggling by some peoples actions and verbal assalts on me and my character,  and my family including my innocent children by those that are supposed to love and support you the most.  Wow I never thought family could act that way, be so cold and cruel and almost downright evil in their actions.   If your reading this and are offended by it then maybe I'm speaking to you, or if you are reading this and saying wow I don't understand some people either then you are not in need of this little reminder and I thank those of you who I don't have to remind that I struggle.  Just because I'm a Christian does not mean that I am perfect it just means I'm forgiven and have the greatest friend to lean on anyone could ever have even in time of the trials and struggles.  I know there's a reason but I may never know the why for the trials and struggles down here.  It is not up to anyone in this life to judge me and tell me I'm not a...

EMMA GRACE TURNER 2/4/10 - 7/11/11 This is the Awareness Ribbon For CHD (Congenital Heart Defects) EMMA GRACE: She got the name Grace Because she lived in the womb when they said she may not, she survived birth even when they said there may not be a chance, then she came home all by God's grace. Little did we know that her grace from God was only beginning. God had some very important work for Emma to do. Through a series of events that God laid out Emma led her family to New Heart Baptist Church. Once there Jesus knocked on the hearts of Emma's mom, dad, and her uncle Daniel. As they all accepted Jesus as their Savior. Emma also revived and renewed the relationships of many other people with God. She taught her family a love like no other and was tough and fought through and endured so many struggles in this world. See Emma was born with a very rare genetic disorder that had never been seen before, she had a congenital heart defect req...

For those of you who know me know that I'm the BIGGEST Bob Seger Fan ever!  I'm always blogging my feelings and the journey we have had and continue to have over the last year, so today I thought I would bring a little positive to uplift me and make me smile at the good memories right before Emma's surgery my life long dream finally came true and I actually got to see him in concert for the first time in my life!  Ecstatic didn't even begin to describe it!  See I had a dream come true right before we had to face our worst nightmare so I would like to share some of the concert clips from our trip to Nashville because anyone around me knows that if I'm listening to anything there's going to be some Seger included in there somewhere and when I think of his song; " Wait for Me"  it makes me think that I'm telling my precious Emma just to wait for me I'll be there one day! I know she'll be waiting for me in Heaven with the open arms of t...

  "Loving Emma Grace" Forever and Always to be Remembered 2/4/10 to 7/11/11 Today is a difficult day for myself as a "Heart Mom"  see one year ago today on May 3rd, 2011 we had to do one of the hardest things for a parent to do. On this day one year ago our lives were changed FOREVER, they will never be the same!  We had to hand our precious daughter to the surgeons who would be doing her Open Heart Surgery repair.  I was absolutely terrified and apprehensive about just handing her over to some unfamiliar face to her and not knowing the outcome.  Even though both of our families and Pastor of our church spent the seven hours it took to make the repairs there with us supporting us and her. It was the most terrifying day I've ever had to face.  Before she was called back to pre-op we spent our time in the waiting room with our Pastor and his daughter who had come to support us. Once we got back to pre-op it was overwhelming emotions and thoughts of ...

GRIEF :    Keen mental suffering or distress over affliction or loss; sharp sorrow; painful regret. a cause or occasion of keen distress or sorrow.     This was my first tattoo in memory of my daughter Emma Grace. I also included my other two babies, Kailey's is pink, Easton's is blue and Emma's is purple with a halo. The phrase "Loving Emma Grace" to always remember her and remind me that she is always with me! This is also their birth order. Kailey, Emma, then Easton was born a few seconds after Emma in the same minute, 8:02 am 2/4/10.   This one I got to bring awareness to the terrible disease that took my daughters life.  This is the ribbon for CHD-Congenital Heart Defect,  She was born with Tetralogy of Fallot and had complications from her first Open Heart Surgery.  I can now explain to people and bring more awareness to this terrible disease because most people do not know what this ribbon s...

Emma Grace Turner 2/4/10 - 7/11/11   EMMA GRACE:     She got the name Grace Because she lived in the womb when they said she may not, she survived birth even when they said there may not be a chance, then she came home all by God's grace.  Little did we know that her grace from God was only beginning.  God had some very important work for Emma to do.  She taught her family a love like no other and was tough and fought through and endured so many struggles in this world.  See Emma was born with a very rare genetic disorder that had never been seen before, she had a congenital heart defect requiring open heart surgery and she could not hear or barely see without the help of her glasses.  We knew about her heart before she was born but had no idea until after birth of all the other struggles she would have to endure when she entered this world on February 4...

 The twins when they were finally united at home after Emma's extended stay in the NICU   Emma Grace Turner February 4th, 2010 to July 11th, 2011   Tomorrow February 4th my precious Angel Emma Grace will be celebrating her first birthday in heaven! She would have been two, as much as I would love for her to be here with us celebrating her 2nd birthday, I can only imagine the celebration she will be having up there!  I hope she knows that no matter what we will always celebrate her life and the joy she brought to us.  The lessons she taught us and the love she taught us is something that I will forever cherish and there will always be a part of me missing but I know one day we will meet again.  One of the greatest moments she brought to me in my life was for me to give my life to God so I KNOW that I KNOW that I KNOW one sweet day we will be reunited again!  I love you my precious Angel and hope you have the greatest celebration you have ...

This friday the 3rd in wear red day in support of heart awareness.  I am working with Kerringtons Heart, www.kerringtonsheart.org in order to spread awareness about Congenital Heart Defects (CHD).  Any business that would like to participate to spread the awareness can contact myself.  It consist of your customers purchasing a heart for $1.00, your cost is nothing all you have to do is display them in your windows, counter, or ect.  All you have to do is let me know if you would like to participate and the amount of hearts you think you may need.  We would love to have all the support we can get for this wonderful cause.  This is something dear to my heart and I am working in honor of my daughter Emma Grace.  Every 15 min a baby is born with a congenital heart defect, this is approximately 1 in every 100 babies born . 4,000 of them will not live to celebrate their 1st Birthday . I pray and hope just like every other parent who has a child born...