Today I am sickened and struggling by some peoples actions and verbal assalts on me and my character, and my family including my innocent children by those that are supposed to love and support you the most. Wow I never thought family could act that way, be so cold and cruel and almost downright evil in their actions. If your reading this and are offended by it then maybe I'm speaking to you, or if you are reading this and saying wow I don't understand some people either then you are not in need of this little reminder and I thank those of you who I don't have to remind that I struggle. Just because I'm a Christian does not mean that I am perfect it just means I'm forgiven and have the greatest friend to lean on anyone could ever have even in time of the trials and struggles. I know there's a reason but I may never know the why for the trials and struggles down here. It is not up to anyone in this life to judge me and tell me I'm not a Christian for they know not my heart and my walk with God, they also know not my struggles and therefore are not entitled to judge, belittle, or verbally assalt me and tell me to "get over it and move on". Come with me walk a day in my shoes talk to my God look at his word and what he says. My God tells me to forgive, I have forgiven, if you can look me in the face and tell me that "you will never forgive me" then maybe the situation should be looked at again, I am by no means judging I'm just saying that maybe sometimes we all need to look at ourselves before faulting others. I am human I do fall and stumble in my walk but my God tells me he forgives me all I have to do is ask. No one has the right to tell me how, when, or where I should or should not grieve the loss of my daughter. You have no right to dictate my actions of grief, it is a process that I have to work through myself, no one can do it for me or tell me when enough is enough. There will never be enough grief to remind me everyday that I have lost one of the most precious things in this life, MY CHILD! I can not believe the actions of some people to pick at an open wound that will never heal in this life. As Christians we are known by the fruits we bear as it tells us in the bible. Just a thought that sometimes maybe that fruit is a little soured and is shown by our actions. If we bear soured fruit then do we have the title of Christian? Only we as individuals can answer that. So for those of you who need this here is a little "Reminder" and education on grief. If you still don't understand then maybe you should come and just walk with me, walk one day in my shoes, then you can judge me if you still feel the need, but may I remind you that your judgement means nothing to me for there is only ONE true judge and that is my God. I can only hope that the fruit you bear from now on is sweet and productive and satisfies your every need and the needs of others to help pick them up out of their valley and walk with them in their struggles, not stomp on them and keep pushing them back down. As a christian this is my prayer for you, that you may find the good fruit and peace in your life that you need and if you need God then the greastest prayer I can pray for you is that you secure your salvation. Once you have found that peace then you don't have the need to try to bring other's down in your misery. May God take that misery from you and give you everlasting life to look forward to. This is all I can do for you, and sometimes prayer is all we need, or for others to pray for us in our times of need as I pray for you!
Some people don't understand a severe
grief enough to bring you to your knees and stop your whole entire
world. See there are many many types of grief and many many more ways to
express your grief. Everyone grieves differently and each loss be it a child,
parent, spouse, ect., the grief is different.
Here is a little info on grieving for those of you that may need to be educated on the subject.
For parents, loss of the child is the cruelest experience
of their life. Such a death brings unbearable pain and irreparable loss
to the parents. It becomes almost impossible for the parents to cope up with the
pain and grief resulted from loss of a child. It is a natural phenomenon and no one should expect them to be the same people, that they were before the loss of their
child. The pain and grief resulted from
the child’s death is not like other medical
conditions that could be treated with medicines and recover. Death of a
child leaves an impact of the life of parents, which at times alters their
lifestyle. It is important for the parents to learn how to overcome with this
pain and grief. Bereaved parents are made to do what they think as impossible –
to overcome the pain and grief brought by death of child and to rebuild life in
absence of their beloved child.
The loss of child makes the parents to face experience of intense emotions and frightening. Their emotions and feelings are natural and normal. However, the bereaved parents must understood that the memories of beloved child will be always with them and they will feel the pain as a result of vacuum created due to loss of their daughter but the intensity of loss will reduce with the passing of time
The loss of child makes the parents to face experience of intense emotions and frightening. Their emotions and feelings are natural and normal. However, the bereaved parents must understood that the memories of beloved child will be always with them and they will feel the pain as a result of vacuum created due to loss of their daughter but the intensity of loss will reduce with the passing of time
Our lives have FOREVER been altered and will never be the same, so please don't expect me to be the person that I no longer am or will ever be. We had two life altering events one being the greatest that anyone could ever experience which being the acceptance of Jesus Christ and his salvation and promise of everlasting life. The other event the worst any parent could ever go through and every parents worst nightmare the loss of our child. These two things will forever be the greatest and most devastating events to ever experience. See you want to judge me by my past and want me to live that same life God says I am no longer but have been born again. He sees not my past but my future walk and life with him. I only wish you who judge could see the same, that I have the greatest gift ever known to man God's promise of salvation and because of that I WILL see my daughter again, I can only pray that you who don't understand have that same promise as well!
This was our reality for 60 some days so talk to me about it when you've been through it then it might make some since until then please don't disrespect myself, my family or my precious daughters memory. Let me deal with it in my own time, and my own way with the help of God since you don't seem to be providing any help.
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